I've been meaning to do a journal entry earlier but my subscription ran out last week and I didn't want my lovely journal skin to disappear, but I figured I had to at some point!
Thanks for all the lovely feedback on my previous journal, I'm glad everybody took it the right way, as I only had good intentions in mind! . I haven't really had much time to answer all the comments yet but I'm slowly getting around to answering one-by-one.
Well, as I've said every year... EXAMS!! Haha, but I'm not panicking this year, no no no. I'm quite confident really, although I shouldn't be because I only had confidence in one exam last time, and that one exam was the one I did really bad on, and all the others I had no confidence in at all... I got really good marks for... so I don't know what to think any more.
But yes, exams.
But I really wanted to talk about a few changes I intend on making around here, you've heard me whine and complain and sook about... minimal things. But I really intend to use my dA account more for art now, if something that I think has real significance to my art happens then yeah I might talk about it, but I'm sick of telling my life story in every single journal entry. Instead I have a book for that stuff now, I just write in it when I feel like I have something to say, and you all know how much I always have to say.
So yeah, art stuff!!
Right now I'm sticking to my scribbles as it's really the only way I feel comfortable drawing right now, I mean I love using pencils and so on, but when I use them, I feel like I have to sit down and actually put extreme effort into it, but when I scribble with my 0.4 thickness fine-liner, I don't care if I make a mistake, and I draw whatever I like. I have no idea why, some stupid psychological glitch probably, but I like it that way. Perhaps in time I would like to focus purely on fine-liner work. But that could be weeks away yet, I'm still contemplating finishing that previous upload of mine (I would put a thumb here... but no sub see, I keep forgetting ) but because it's in pencil, I feel like I have to be prepared and do everything according to what I'm told.
So that's my latest art-related chatter. Only a heavy paragraph but it's something for now, it'll expand to maybe TWO paragraphs in future .
For now, I hope you're all enjoying the current fall/autumn/spring weather, and you're all keeping well.
You know, lately I feel like I'm being neglected by others here on dA, and frankly I don't blame you. I'm basically a lazy grouch who wants to do good to the world but always feels obligated to do other things first, AKA... procrastinate.
But I've already "lost" a friend here on dA who used to be such a lovely person and always used to make coming on dA and uploading pictures exciting. But now it feels as if I have a few people who would rather see me just disappear from dA, and as much as I wish I could do that and live my life, I always feel compelled to come back here and check out every-bodies magical work and words.
So, in an attempt to say sorry for any rudeness, selfishness, over-depressing journals and more, I want to mention some of the many people who has made my couple of years here on dA worthwhile.
I want to start with a person who was one of the first really friendly and helpful people that I have met here, sharing a similar interest in rats, I think we've had some great conversations. This person would be . I want to thank you for giving me encouragement and showing real interest (even if it wasn't real, it still gave me confidence ) and I haven't heard from you in a long time, I hope that all is well and that when you moved, all went well with your rats and the moving.
Next, one of the first Myst fans I met on here (probably not the first, but I can't actually back this up ), is a fantastic writer who shared a similar love of Sirrus (*swoon*) and is now the proud owner of a lovely DuKHAT (pun intended ), would be the ever-fantastic , thanks for being such a lovely friend!!
Much like , a extremely obsessed (it's a good thing ) Myst fan, Sirrus fangirl and writer; a extremely talented girl with so much talent to give, and has given so much of her time, effort and health towards writing 17 MIGHTY CHAPTERS of Devokan Tsahno, that I'm sure has given others aside from myself some fantastic fanfiction to read while catching the train to the city, not to mention inspire my own creativity! You go you keep on showing the world your talent, even if you need time recovering first, we all admire your effort and need in refreshing yourself, and thanks for all the love! (P.S. Happy Birthday in advance!! )
And now, for a girl who has really inspired me with her talent in digital art, writing, traditional art, acting and more, I really don't know where to begin!!This girl is without doubt; , I want to thank you so much for being such a great watcher, friend and jolly person! I really hope you stick around for many years to come as I always love seeing your new work and what new things you have a keen go at!
I couldn't go another second with mentioning somebody who has not only made a nice contribution to my dA experience (as well as many others) but has done something so HUGE for me, I really don't know how to repay her! If you haven't already guessed, this would be good ol' . You have been like the good friend I've never even met, but will never forget, and I think I'll write too much about you, so I'll keep it simple and say THANK-YOU soooooooooo much for all the support, tips, complements and taking care of the for me, I never expected somebody I've never met to do so much for me, and I often feel so terrible for not giving the same right back at you because you most certainly deserve that and so much more. So I really hope you'll forgive my terrible ways and keep on showing all that amazing graphic work that you just seem to have a natural talent for!!
<< 4 you, Derbs.
Now, from right across the other side of the world, has been such an awesome friend, who always takes my breath away in awe when she uploads a new picture, I have actually seen her talent grow since knowing her, which is just amazing and so great to see. I'm sorry I haven't been using ICQ to talk to you, the program scared me a little bit because I had no clue in what I was doing. Thank you, and keep on doing all your great work!
Another fantastic artist from a foreign land, is a absolute inspiration and great person to chat to on just about anything!! I can't express just how much I love reading Fae's comments because they always make me smile and laugh, and if her bubbly personality wasn't enough, she is such a fantastic artist that always has something fantastical to share with us all. Thanks for all the laughs and lovely complements!!
Now, my hands are already wearing down as I have so much to write about everybody, but I simply can't say it all coz 1 carnt tark al dat gud & stuf lik taht LOL.
But I'll carry on, with such a good and faithful friend; , I have so much to say about you, so I'm sure I've already said quite a bit to you in private and so much more, I'll leave it to a friendly minimum here in public eyes. You've been so much more than just a great friend for me, you have tolerated some of my bad sides that I didn't even know existed and I hope our friendship will last farther than I can see, you are very talented, smart and caring and I hope you know this too. Never doubt yourself for a minute as I know underneath the skin, you are a true Romeo who is waiting for his Juliet. Thanks Kefrith!! (P.S. He is single ladies. )
And I have just so many more people to mention, SO MANY more such as , , and , so if I haven't already mentioned you, don't think I admire you any less than these guys, you are all so fantastic and have really done such wonderful things and I hope you all know that!! Thank you all!!
So hopefully I've got this message across to you all, and if you still dislike me that's cool, I'll understand. But I hope you know I still care for you all, even if I don't comment, reply or fav.
Well I said I was doing URU fanart today, and I started... but didn't finish it because I didn't like the sketch, but I'll finish it... one day.
But instead I started working on something else, very different to my normal work actually, I'm not even sure how it happened but it did!
I've used a very different colouring and shading method and it is...alright, but not great.
Anyway, I'll probably have it done tomorrow so I'll chuck it up here as soon as I've done. (Not that anybody cares, but I still have to act like somebody other than Pirky reads my journals and takes interest )
I'm still itching to play URU, it's like I've gone back to before I had the game and was dying to play it!
But thanks to Pirky, I've got a good idea... I shall draw some URU fan art, and my Myst persona (of which I have started, just not finished).
I have no idea what has gotten me all Myst-ified again this week. I mean, I'm sure I'm not the only one who has ever been a major fan of something, only to find it has sort of worn off on you. Well it's been like that for a while, and all of a sudden I feel like replaying them all, perhaps because I keep having Myst related dreams and such I feel like having a nice nostalgic journey through their beautiful ages.
Updaties! 
Greetings!
. I haven't really had much time to answer all the comments yet but I'm slowly getting around to answering one-by-one. 
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Peaceful
) Myst fan, Sirrus fangirl and writer; a extremely talented girl with so much talent to give, and has given so much of her time, effort and health towards writing 17 MIGHTY CHAPTERS of Devokan Tsahno, that I'm sure has given others aside from myself some fantastic fanfiction to read while catching the train to the city, not to mention inspire my own creativity! You go 
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